From Thaddeus an Apostle of the Christ

20. Wind and Sea

           As mentioned previously, I grow up in Nazareth which is about a day’s long walk (15 miles) from the Sea of Galilee; really a large lake. As a farming family, we do not often go to that body of water, though occasionally we visit Tiberias; a fishing village on the lake where we sell our wheat and barley. Once I start following Jesus, I am with other disciples who make their living as fishermen. In the Sea of Galilee they catch tilapia, sardines and catfish. I’m glad I do not spend my life smelling of fish.

          After a long day of teaching and surrounded by large crowds, Jesus, that night, decides to take a boat with us apostles to the other side of the lake. These fishing boats don’t seem that sea worthy, and I get sick just thinking of being out on the water. The boat is about 18 cubits long and 5 cubits wide. It is made mostly of cedar planks, has a sail and four rowing ports. I’d rather be riding a donkey.

          When we are about half way across the lake, a fierce storm comes up. Big waves are everywhere, and we are afraid the boat will be swamped. The sail has been taken down, but even the fishermen among us, who should be used to such storms, seem terrified. I have never seen Simon Peter and John frightened like this. In the middle of the chaos, Jesus is in the stern asleep on a cushion. That’s right, though he is drenched, he is sleeping as if there is not a care in the world. Andrew shakes Jesus awake and says, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”

          Now as I am shivering and deeply sorry I ever left the shore, I seriously wonder what Jesus can do. It’s one thing to heal people and cast out demons, quite another to stop a raging storm. However, Jesus stands in the battered boat, looks out over the waves, and says, “Quiet! Be still!” Suddenly the sea is completely calm as if we are floating on a mirror which reflects the stars. Then Jesus looks at all of us as we are dripping wet and still terrified from the experience. “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

          Our faith must become greater if we are to truly follow a messiah who can make even the waves and wind obey him.

26. The Feeding

           Jesus has just learned of the beheading of John the Baptist. As he is grieving, the twelve of us return from proclaiming the Kingdom and from healing and casting out demons. Jesus, despite his sorrow, hears all we have seen and done and realizes that we are physically and emotionally exhausted. He says, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.” We take a boat to the other side of the Sea of Galilee and set down in a natural amphitheater near the town of Bethsaida.

           Unfortunately our respite is short lived. Simon the Zealot audibly groans as crowds approach where we are resting. It seems that word has spread far and wide about Jesus’ ministry and of our part in it. Literally thousands of men, women and children seem to suddenly appear. Jesus takes the opportunity to teach them. Again, his voice lifts through the crowd in a way that all can hear.

           It is late in the day, and few of those here have brought food with them. Jesus looks at us and says, “Where shall we buy bread for these people to eat?” Philip says that it would take a half year’s wages to even give each of these people a morsel. To me, even the idea of feeding thousands of people here is ludicrous. Andrew has listened to the conversation and brings forward a small boy, “Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?”

           Jesus should admit that the problem is unsolvable, but then he is no ordinary Messiah. I have seen Jesus heal others, cast out demons, even calm the sea, but to feed over five thousand hungry people? Then, everything changes. Jesus blesses the five barley loaves and two fish. Suddenly the loaves become hundreds as do the fish. Many hundreds. With multiple baskets for distribution. The disciples are tasked to distribute this bounty, and we spend the better part of two taxing hours making sure all are adequately fed. Thankfully there is a spring nearby to slake everyone’s thirst.

           At the end of the feeding, Jesus has us gather up the remains of the barley loaves into twelve baskets. The large crowd, so awed by what has just happened, proclaim that this prophet, Jesus, must be made king. I am troubled to where this could lead, and thankfully Jesus slips away on his own to pray and recuperate. We disciples could use a little alone time ourselves. Running an open air restaurant for five thousand plus is no picnic.

From Coyote Moon Trailer Haven - 2019

Space #15  Kenny Lane Knobloch 47

 

Truck Driver

Been drivin a truck for

near twenty years, at first

local but now almos all

long haul.  Think of that

there Linda Ronstadt song,

"Willin," drivin from

Tucson to Tucumcari
Tehachapi to Tonopah

Thas me, put that hammer

down and go. Anywhere

carry anythin that makes

a buck.  Ya'll know what

you got to spend for gas

mulitpli all that for trucks

then you got maintnance

all kinds of haulin fees

thas why I live in a trailer

though I'm only home a

couple days a month.

 

Still, hell, I couldin do

no regular day job.  Have

to be out on the road passin

them camels and watchin

out for ghost cars, them

unmarked cops.  I waz

married once but she were

so lazy she wouldn’t work

in a pie factory as a taster.

I did better with my cat

Roadkill, took her on every

trip.  She loved them disco

lights on top of the cab at

night. Didin need no Lot

Lizards, thas hookers at

truckstops; with Roadkill

aroun she waz plenti comfort

herself  till she got pancaked

by some blind ass idiot outside

of Sioux Falls. If I get a new

cat will name her Grits, they

got this truck stop in Georgia

where the grits is so good

if you put them on top of your

head, your tongue would slap

your brains out tryin to get to em.

In the mornin I'm hauling a load

to Memphis.  Maybe me and

Elvis can hang out at Graceland

down in the jungle room. Bet

that dude has stories to tell.

From Digging For Bones - 2011

 What if John Wayne

"Courage is being scared to death but saddling up anyway”   John Wayne

 What if John Wayne

had been in the Macy’s

Thanksgiving Day Parade

slapping the reins on

a huge stagecoach float

surrounded by Sioux

Indians riding stick horses

and waving pictures of

George Armstrong Custer.

 

What if John Wayne

didn’t die at the Alamo

but instead went after

the Mexican drug lords

his Winchester blasting

away piles of heroin

cocaine and amphetamines

the bad guys fleeing

Juarez, Nogales and Tijuana

like so many cucarachas.

 

What if John Wayne

had made a movie

with Clint Eastwood

The Dukeand

The Man With No Name

their faces grim

riding side by side

into some corrupt

company town

the “bought” sheriff

laughing at the newcomers

until he draws first and

is turned into swiss cheese.

 

What if John Wayne

were still tracking

some barely clad

female pop icon

kidnapped

for continually foisting

lousy vocals and a miserable

life style on a suspecting

public, the girl finally freed

when John threatens to blare

singing cowboy songs into

the captors’ hidden lair.

 

What if John Wayne

could now take America

on his broad shoulders

and carry us across

rivers and prairies to

that sacred place where

honesty and respect

are a given and

the sky at sunrise

is streaked

with possibility.

From Desert Moon Rising - 1992

The Lazy D

 

 Each weekday morning

I ride

a counter stool

at the Lazy D café.

Regular as sunrise

I order strong coffee

two eggs over easy

bacon

crisper than

a waitress’s starched

whites.

 

Becky Sue

pours the coffee,

her left eye

like a stampede’s aftermath

the black and blue

still fresh.

My questioning glance

prompts the whispered

assurance,

“It’s alright, don’t worry.

Sam only did it

because he loves me.”

Before I can reply

she is taking other orders,

the culprit changed

to an errant baseball.

 

Becky Sue lingers

at the counter’s far end,

my coffee growing cold.

Beyond the café

stretches unbroken desert.

A female jackrabbit

is teaching her offspring

that red-tailed hawks

do not swoop down

out of love,

and kangaroo rats

know better

than to share a lair

with rattlesnakes.

From Great American Success Stories - 1977

Anna Marie Pallachi – Roller Derby Queen

 

Sophia Pallachi had just started in on a

plate of lasagna when the pains began

coming regularly.  An ambulance was called

and Sophia was rushed to St. John’s Hospital

in Brooklyn where she was delivered of a

healthy six pound baby girl.

 

The child, Anna Marie, struggled through

childhood as one of eight Pallachi offspring.

Home was a crowded apartment on the top

floor of a five story walk-up in Little Italy.

Silence was in short supply.  The air was

habitually filled with the sounds of crying

babies, fighting parents, snoring grandmas

and the Great Caruso.

 

Anna Marie was taught how to make pasta,

knit shawls and take care of babies, but

none of these things held much interest

for her.  One Christmas, however, Anna

Marie received roller skates from her

father, Vittorio the butcher, which solved

the interest problem forthwith.

 

Whenever she had a free moment, Anna Marie

spent it on her skates.  Careening down

neighborhood sidewalks, her ribbonedpigtails

streaming behind, Anna Marie terrorized young

and old alike.  Over the years she plowed

into ice cream carts, garbage cans and cops

on the beat, but nothing could deter her from

skating at every opportunity.  She was the

best in Little Italy, maybe in all of Brooklyn.

 

When Anna Marie was seventeen it was arranged

that she would marry Joe Lola, an up and coming

soldier in the Brotherhood.  In case of trouble

Vittorio wanted some instant protection in

the family.  The skates were reluctantly put

in a trunk to be replaced by cooking, sewing

and babies.

 

Anna Marie tried to love Joe, but it was

hard, especially when your husband can

never talk about his day at the office.

After six years of marriage and two children,

the roof fell in when Joe was wasted in a

gang war with the Spitale brothers.

 

After the funeral while sitting at home and

wondering what to do with her life, Anna Marie

absent mindedly turned on the TV.  A roller

derby game was on.  It was a sign.  Leaving the

kids with Grandma, Anna Marie set out to become

a roller derby queen.

 

Though only 5’3” and 100 pounds, Anna Marie

was soon tearing them up on the banked track

of the roller derby circuit.  In public she

was known as “Little Italy.”  In private she

was lovingly referred to as “Wonder Wop.”

 

Little Italy could block and jam better than

almost anyone, but her real fame came as a

result of the spectacular fights she staged

with other skaters.  Crowds went berserk as

she pummeled Big Martha into wining submission

or knocked a skater over the rail and into

the fourth row seats.

 

In just a couple of seasons, Anna Marie

landed an exclusive contract to play for the

Bay City Bombers and was featured in Sports

Illustrated and Ladies Home Journal.  At

the peak of her popularity, and made fabulously

wealthy through lucrative endorsements, Anna

Marie undertakes a goodwill world tour on

roller skates.

 

Well received in Africa, Asia and Europe (She

is given the key to the city in Rome), Anna

Marie is on the last leg as she skates through

South America.  Then disaster strikes as Anna

Marie disappears from a jungle trail deep in

the Amazon.  The search goes on for months to

no avail.  She is lost.

 

Her jersey is enshrined at the Roller Derby

Hall of Fame in Port Arthur, Texas.  Flags fly

at half-mast in towns which get the games on

TV.  A school in her old neighborhood is

renamed Anna Marie Junior High.  She is sorely

missed.

 

Every couple of years some expedition reports

having sighted a petite figure on roller skates

barreling down a trail in the Amazon River basin,

but the sightings are never substantiated.

Though her fate remains a mystery, Anna Marie

lives forever in the memories of true sports

aficionados.